A Good Milestone

January 20, 2012 at 10:39 pm | Posted in CKD, Daddy-O, Kidney Disease, Transplant | 2 Comments
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Too tired to write. Tomorrow is Alex’s 2nd Kidney-versary.  I’m still in awe of it all.

For those of you who haven’t heard all the details, read this.  And this.  And this. And this (if you want a laugh).

I’ll be sentimental later…

Things my Kids Said…

December 31, 2011 at 12:01 pm | Posted in All Things Doodle, Caityisms, CKD, Depression, Family Ties, Kidney Disease, Miscellaneous Crap, Sisters, Toeses and Noses | Leave a comment
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Yesterday the girls were talking about their beds.

“Well, Mommy has her own bed too” said Caity.

“Not really.” replied Lexy.  ”she has to share it with Daddy.  We’re lucky, we get our own beds…”

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Caity’s crazy about monkeys. She has been since, well, she was born.  Anyone who knows her, knows that her friend George is most beloved and she carries him everywhere.  Poor George lost the stuffing in his middle quite some time ago (it migrated to his feet), and he can no longer sit on his own.  George is a good monkey.  He gives me a hug and a cheerful “ooh ooh ahh ahh” every morning when Caity gets up.  You can’t ask for a better friend than that.

For Christmas, Santa brought Caity the “Monkey Dunk” game.  We opened it yesterday and as I was separating the banana tokens, I told Caity that she better keep George away from them because he might eat the bananas and then they couldn’t play the game.

“Mommy…” Caity said, rolling her eyes at me.  ”George isn’t real….”

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Happy New Year everyone!  I haven’t posted as much as I’d like recently because I have been sans-computer since September.  Santa was a sweetheart this year and spoiled me rotten by bringing me an iPad.  I’ve put it to good use so far and despite what my Husband says, I haven’t burned out the battery yet…

Here’s hoping the odd year curse* is left behind us once again and a promising even year is ahead again.  I, for one, cannot wait to see this year pass, it was stressful to say the least.  All the best, see you next year :)

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*The odd year curse is something I have noticed throughout my life.  Bad things happen in odd years and good in even.  I’ve lost jobs in odd years, gained them in even.  People very close to me (myself included) have been diagnosed with life threatening illnesses in odd years and ‘cured’ in even.  It always seems like if bad things are going to happen they will happen in an odd year (9/11).  Although My kids were both born in odd years, their births were both difficult, Caity still struggling with some of it.

Almost Paradise

December 11, 2011 at 8:43 pm | Posted in Daddy-O, Depression, Family Ties, Miscellaneous Crap, Toeses and Noses | Leave a comment
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Entrance to the lobby

We just came back from vacation.  Alex and I spent a much-needed week in Punta Cana, Dominican Republic at the Bahia Prinicipe Ambar resort.  No kids.  Just us.  Alex’s Step-Mom kindly moved here for the week so we could get away.  We both desperately needed a vacation after everything we’d been through the past few years.  I was exhausted – physically, emotionally, mentally – I had not one ounce of patience nor energy left.  I needed to recharge my batteries.

The temperature hovered around 28°C all week, it was heavenly.  Although the resort is listed as 5-Star, I’d give it 4-Stars.  It was really nice, but I wasn’t blown away.  The a-la-carte restaurants were good, especially the Don Pablo and the Bella Italia, but the Santa Fe really sucked.   By the end of it, we were tired of resort food and were so happy to find a Wendy’s at the airport.  Nothing though, could compete with the view.

We sat around the pool most of the time and went on one excursion – snorkeling and Stingray/Nurse Shark dive.  The ocean was too rough to go on the other excursions we booked, including Snuba and a Catamaran sail along the coast.  It was nice just to relax – something I haven’t done in years and up until now, wasn’t sure I remembered how to do.

Just gorgeous

the beach...

The beach was beautiful and with the exception of the crazy German tourists who nearly started a fist fight when we were on the transit with another German couple who didn’t seem too pleased to be bothered by the first couple, it was a great trip.  Alex surprised me (although I knew he was up to something) with a ring.  A beautiful three-stone diamond ring, surrounded on each side with four smaller diamonds.  When I saw it, I knew what it represented – him and our two daughters, my three monkeys.

We went snorkeling, held Stingrays, swam with Sharks and Parasailed. What more could a person want? The extra surge of Vitamin D really helped – so did the plenitude of Pina Colodas. Now I get to go back to work and face a gazillion emails and get ready for Christmas – which I can’t believe is only two weeks away.

A Little Brevity

November 22, 2011 at 8:41 pm | Posted in Toeses and Noses | Leave a comment

Some Caityisms…

On why she can never eat her Dinner in less than two hours…

“Sometimes my heart beats so I can’t eat fast…”

Um… Ok…?

“Once I had a blood crusher on my hand and I couldn’t eat fast…”

A ‘blood crusher’ is a four year old’s way of describing an IV.

She’s a cute little monkey and after a day like today, Caityism really help.

I’ll return to my box now.

This Would be Easier on an iPad…

November 4, 2011 at 7:10 pm | Posted in Caityisms, CKD, Daddy-O, Family Ties, Kidney Disease, Miscellaneous Crap, My Kid is a Donut, Sisters, Toeses and Noses | Leave a comment
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I don’t even know where to begin with this post. I’m beginning to think that I need to purchase a timeshare parking space near the Hospital, because that’s where I’ve spent so much, too much, time lately.

Last Monday I thought I pulled a muscle in my back. Last Thursday, I was cold at work. I’m NEVER cold at work. I wear t-shirts and I’m still warm. Last Saturday the fever peaked at 102 and my side was aching. I went to the Doctors and they told me that I had another Kidney infection. Frack.

I missed taking my kids for Trick or Treating on Monday for the first time, ever. I was almost too sick to hand out the treats.

Tuesday after dinner Caity said she ate too much. Ok. She went to bed and from the time she lay down she started crying. Hard. Cait’s been known to pitch a fit when she doesn’t want to do something and I attributed her crying to that. I yelled up the stairs for her to be quiet, and she said “Mommy, my tummy REALLY hurtsssss.”

We went through the usual questions, do you have to go to the bathroom? Nooooo. Do you think you’re going to be sick? Nooooo. Where does it hurt? Heeeerrrrreee (pointing to the space on the right of her belly button). I tried lying with her, thinking she had indigestion an rubbed her back. She kept yelling at me that she hurt and continued crying hard. My gut told me there was something going on.

I brought her downstairs with me and told Alex that we’d probably need to go to Emerg. He didn’t think it was that bad. Then she started throwing up. Then the fever started. Then the moaning started. And the screaming. Around 10 he took her in.

The Emerg Doctor said it was probably a virus but ordered an Ultrasound just in case.

They needed a Urine sample so Alex took her to the bathroom and told her she needed to pee in a cup.

Caity tilted her head and looked at her Dad incredulously. “Seriously??”

Alex laughed and said, “yes.”

She was still a little confused, “They’re not going to make me drink it, are they??”

The Emerg Doctor said she probably had a virus, but scheduled an ultrasound for the morning. They got home around 1 am. I got about 2 hours sleep. I think.

I took Cait for the ultrasound on Wednesday. I was standing behind the Tech and could see everything, not that I knew much of what was on the screen.  We waited for the results and the ER Doctor wanted a Urology consult.  He said Caity had two Stones, one in her bladder, one by her right Kidney causing it to back up.  She was pale, she was tired all the time, she was obviously very sick.  She was so sick that she didn’t make a fuss at the hospital. She sat quietly and even napped. This is a kid who went through two boughts of Pneumonia and stunned the doctors that all she wanted to do was play.  She broke my heart several times that night.

They told us to go to Sick Kids.

Alex left work and we went down to the Sick Kids Emergency.  We spent about 4 hours in the waiting room after being told we were third in line.  Kids were running around, Parents not parenting.  Caity lying in my lap, unwanting or unable to move, sleeping.  We get a room and a while later another ultrasound.  This time they can’t find the stones, but they can see evidence of where they were – the path they took was inflamed, dilated, sore.  The Radiologist suggested another scan be performed in the morning to verify his findings.  I made Alex go home, unwilling as he was to leave his family – his daughter so vulnerable, his Wife a mess.  There wasn’t room for the three of us to sleep there and one of us needed a decent sleep.  There was also the issue of our cat, Mavvy’s Diabetes.  He had missed one of his shots already, and shouldn’t miss another.  He drove home around 2 am.  I rolled around on the reclining chair, unable to get comfy and I think I fell asleep from sheer exhaustion.

The Doctors at Sick Kids are amazing.  They treat their patients like children, not little Adults.

After a heartwrenching night filled with little kids screaming and crying from pain, the next morning we waited and waited and waited and waited for an ultrasound.  Caity was so hungry and wasn’t allowed to eat, but anytime anyone with a uniform came into our room she immediately asked for some chocolate cookies and chocolate milk.  She was feeling better but her side still hurt.  We finally had the last ultrasound and it confirmed that the stones were gone but revealed something else – possible Appendicitis.  Great.  Does this kid have to go through anything more than she has already had to deal with?

After a consult with a really cute Surgical Resident and his Attending, they determined that Caity was no longer in any immediate danger and she could be released.

We came home last night, tired … beyond tired.  One of the Doctors said we must have been exhausted … I told him, yesterday we were exhausted…

Today I sent Caity to Daycare only, so she could have a calmer day to relax.  Ha.  She was Queen of the Daycare and ordered the other two kids around.  When I picked the girls’ up, they were at the Park running around.  It’s amazing, a child’s ability to bounce back from an illness.  If you saw her now, you’d never believe she was so sick just two days ago.

I finally feel like I can breathe again.  My child is safe.  This weekend is all about cuddles with the girls and relaxing.  We all need it.  We may even go to the movies.

Random Sampling

October 12, 2011 at 6:18 pm | Posted in Miscellaneous Crap | 2 Comments
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Happy Turkey Day fellow Canadians!  Ok, so I’m late, big deal.

We had an absolutely gorgeous weekend – 26°C – the birds were signing, the sun was shining, and I got a speeding ticket.  Great.  My own stupidity. We were heading to my SIL’s for lunch and I was yipping to the kids, just having had turned a corner and started accelerating, trying to keep up with the car in front of me.  I didn’t realize it was a 50 kph zone and … well … he clocked me at 94 kph.  Six more kilometres an hour and I could have been charged with Street Racing.  I’ve been known to go above the posted speed limit on occasion, but I’m not usually that far over.  Luckily the cop was a very nice man who had a full view of my cleavage, and he reduced the ticket to 10 over as I had no priors nor outstanding warrants.  Thank you Mr. Officer.  Mea Culpa I was a bad girl.  When the Officer went back to his car to write the ticket, Lexy suggested I give him the cheesecake we had in the back and maybe he wouldn’t give me a ticket. Now why didn’t I think of that…? lol.

Cait’s loving School, which is great.  She’s proving to be just as smart as her Sister.  When she comes home from the Sitter’s, she’s so excited to tell me about her day and what they learned.  One day recently, she told me she was ‘the best helper ever!’.  She’s already surpassed Lexy in one area, it’s October and she hasn’t yet been sent to the Principal’s office…

It’s been crazy busy at work lately and it seems to finally be slowing down .. a bit.  This year’s been hell in terms of volume of work.  In the seven years I’ve been there, I don’t remember ever being as consistently busy – it’s a good thing.  The fruits of our labour are finally paying off and I’m taking a much-needed break in a few weeks’ time.  Can’t wait.  I plan on camping out at the swim up pool bar for two or three days solid…

That’s all the news that’s fit to print… have a great rest of the week…!

 

The Dog Ate My Homework

September 29, 2011 at 9:11 pm | Posted in All Things Doodle, Caityisms, Family Ties, My Kid is a Donut, Sisters, Toeses and Noses, TV Season | Leave a comment
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Been a long time since I’ve been here for reasons too stupid to mention but they all have to do with my workplace.

a) Sharing the cute…

My Littlest Little One’s Big Day

Caity loves School. I mean she L-O-V-E-S School. Afterall, School is where you play, and sing songs and colour and cover your entire body in glitter – yes, glitter. She’s very proud of herself for being a big girl like her big Sister. She was impossibly cute in her pretty new dress and pigtails. She came home, pigtails out, dress stained, hands and face full of dirt. I think I want to go back to JK … Lexy started Grade 3 and also loves it, though less enthusiastically than her Sister. I’m very proud of both of my girls. I’m still not ready for them to grow up yet though…

b) On being unwell…

I’m over the Pneumonia finally but had a long bout of Asthma after it. I had finally stopped coughing for about four days when the weather became all damp and rainy and it kicked up my Asthma again. Thanks. The only bright side to being sick is that I lost 6 pounds in one week. I’m now down 18 pounds and have lost 25 inches and am very proud of myself. The spandex-hooker pants I wear at the gym are actually a little loose in places – I love it. I’m back to regular workouts again so hopefully some more will come off – as long as I can stay away from the junk food!

c) With every Season, turn, turn, turn…

The trees are all turning beautiful colours of yellow, orange, scarlett. This is my favourite time of year, just before it gets too cold. The temperature dropped the past few days and the weatherman says it’s supposed to be about 3°C on Saturday but my ankle’s telling me it’s going to snow.

d) Cats…

My male cat hadn’t been feeling well for a little while. He’d lost weight, would drink a full bowl of water and then have to pee like he was Niagara Falls. Alex took him to the Vet and $500 later we found out he has Feline Diabetes. He also had an infection on his foot so he needed antibiotics for that in addition to the insulin shots twice a day. We have to buy special cat food ($3 for a regular sized tin) and go through two of those a day to feed both cats. Hopefully Charlie will lose some weight too. Now that he’s getting his insulin shots (I’ve only stabbed myself once by the way), he’s much better, back to his old self. We just have to make sure that we take care of him the way he deserves. He’s been such a loyal pet these past 11 years.

He’s so good with the kids, despite their efforts to being gentle. He quietly sat there when young Lexy, aged 18 months decided to sit on him.

“Lexy!  WHAT ARE YOU DOING??!!??”

“I widing Mavvy!” Poor cat.

Ok, I’m tired now and have much pre-recorded tv to watch. So happy the new season started.  Have you seen Terra Nova or Pan Am yet? Both look promising.

Conversations From the Couch

September 8, 2011 at 11:57 pm | Posted in Family Ties, Miscellaneous Crap, Toeses and Noses, TV Season | Leave a comment
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Probably not what you’re thinking.

To sum up the week: 

Lexy started Grade 3 on Tuesday (yay!)
Caity starts Junior kindergarten tomorrow (boo!)
Today is my Birthday (meh, another year older, big deal)
I have Pneumonia (big boo cause it sucks!)

Spoiler alert:  if you don’t want the details, skip the next paragraph.

I’ve been off work all week and even though they are supportive, I’m sure they’re a little annoyed because we are so busy.  I’ve helped out from home when I’ve had a burst of energy lasting longer than 5 minutes.  Pneumonia really sucks because the version I have makes me have had a fever since last Friday which causes unbearable chills and shaking and lasts 4 hours or so.  Following that bit of pleasant-ness comes the heat.  Boiling hot, both as a feeling inside and to the touch for another 4 hours or so.  But the piece de la resistance is the Migraine.  When my temp hit 104°F yesterday and couldn’t keep anything down, off to Emerg (I went to my Family Doctor on Tuesday by the way – thanks stoopid Stat Holiday, Monday night was hell).  At the Triage desk the Nurse asked me to rank the pain from 1-10.  I told her 9.5 but it felt like 15.  I have only had one headache like that before and that was 8 years ago.  The only upside from this is that I’ve lost 3 pounds in two days.  Apparently shaking like a leaf for hours on end is a really good aerobic form of exercise (anyone from the 80′s here?  Come on 4 more!  3 more!  2 more! thank you Beth – think it was called the 30 minute workout or something like that).  Just wish the fever would finally break…

So anyway… back to our original Title.

We were watching “Royal Pains” which I have set up to record every week.  Good thing too because a) I’d miss half my shows and b) I can’t be sure I’d be awake or able to watch anything recently.

There was a scene where the young Indian Doctor’s Assistant, Divya Katdare (played by Reshma Shetty) is talking to Dr. Lawson’s ex-wife Jill Casey (played by Jill Flint) about Divya’s upcoming nuptuals and how her culture demands that the couple remains chaste until after her wedding.  The conversation went something like this (I’m paraphrasing):

Jill to Divya:  How do you know you’ll be compatable?

I pipe up:  Because you try that shoe on before you buy it!

Alex looks at me and laughs.

Me:  What? I tried my shoe on first before I bought it…

Him (incredulously):  You … bought … me?

Me:  Yep.  I got me a Loafer …

Him (exasperated):  I’m a Loafer??

Me:  Yep.  Size 13 and comfy…

Saturday

August 27, 2011 at 9:41 am | Posted in All Things Doodle, Caityisms, Daddy-O, Family Ties, My Kid is a Donut | 1 Comment
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Alex has been on nights the past couple of weeks so I’ve had the kids full-time.  He lets me sleep in on the weekends, and gives the kids their breakfast.  I came downstairs and Caity immediately pounced upon me, trying to get my attention and a cuddle at the same time as being a brat.  Lexy was in the rocking chair, watching tv.  I managed to extract Caity from my leg long enough to walk to the kitchen and get a hug from Alex.  Caity thought the three of us should cuddle and started crying when I told her it was Daddy’s time.  I told her we would cuddle later, and Daddy hasn’t seen me all week and she stopped crying eventually.

I turn my back for a second and I get attacked by a four-year old again.  Yet again I have to extract a Caity from my leg (the fastest way to remove a Caity is to tickle them).  She flops on the rocking chair (recently vacated by Lexy).  Alex tells her not to jump on the chair because it’s broken and of course, Caity starts wailing again.  Alex goes upstairs to lie down for a while.  I try to get Cait to stop crying.

“BUT I JUST WANT TO CUDDLE” she wails.

“You don’t even know why you’re crying anymore do you?  You were just crying over the chair a minute ago.”

“AND I CAN’T SPELL!” she adds, for good measure.

I crack up.  This kid is too funny.

So I go upstairs to tell Alex, laughing all the way.  He grabs me for a cuddle on the bed and we’re talking and we keep getting interrupted as Caity comes into the bedroom a couple of times.  We shoo her downstairs and then Lexy comes up.  She too is shooed.  The cats come up and start eating the plastic bag that’s in the closet. They get shooed.  We resume cuddling once again.  Caity comes up one last time and we tell her to go pick a movie and Lexy will put it on for her.  She finally goes away.  I can hear Lexy putting the movie on downstairs and Alex and I continue our cuddle.

We’re talking and hugging and he’s admiring my newly found muscles (thank you Curves!), thinking we’re by ourselves, and all of a sudden we hear:

“I can hear you”.

Instant buzz kill amid raucous laughter.

Lexy had creeped upstairs apparently and we didn’t hear her.

*sigh*.  They have to sleep sometime…

Maelstrom

August 12, 2011 at 9:46 pm | Posted in Caityisms, CKD, Daddy-O, Depression, Family Ties, Kidney Disease, My Kid is a Donut, Transplant | 2 Comments
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A maelstrom /ˈmeɪlstrɒm/ is a very powerful whirlpool; a large, swirling body of water. A free vortex, it has considerable downdraft (source: wikipedia).  The preceding sentence describes depression perfectly. It’s been difficult to deal with and it has caused some issues at home.  It’s been challenging at times to feel any kind of self-worth or to feel you have value.  It’s easier to just meander through the days, waiting for night, only to start all over again the next day.  

 

I was reminded recently of where I fit in this family.  Alex sent this to me the other day and I told him I would post it.  I don’t think he believed me.  Well.  Here it is.  I’ve edited some of it because there were some very personal things written that are only for the two of us, however most of the following is posted just to torture him: 

 

“In the last month or so there have been a few times where you have asked me “Why?” after I have told you that I love you.  I know that I am not always the most expressive person in the world but I wanted you to know there are many reasons that I have adored you from early on when we first met.  I am finding new ones all the time but these are a few of the reasons why you have had my heart for as long as I can remember:

 

  • The way you seem to fit just perfectly against my chest as you lean against me as we embrace.
  • The way you close your eyes and crack a tiny smile just as you tilt your head to kiss me.
  • On July 12, 2003 you gave me one of the greatest gifts I will ever receive in making me a Father for the first time of a wonderful baby girl who stole my heart the minute I saw her.  Then on Feb 6, 2007 you gave me the squeakiest monkey-loving ‘donut’ that anyone could hope for.  I don’t know if I will ever be able to adequately express the gratitude I have for you making me a father.
  • The way you bat those green eyes at me when you say “No” in a playful way.
  • The way you have become my best friend and someone I want to grow old with.
  • That a simple ‘Hey you’ when I walk in the door puts my heart at ease.
  • The beaming smile I see on your face when one of our girls does something that you are proud of.
  • Trying to put your foot against my leg at night under the covers. Yes I know I complain and try to stop you but deep down I still like it.
  • How you call me Cyclops when we touch our faces together.
  • How your “aggressive nesting” gave us a home that I cherish.
  • How you want more for your girls then either of ever had and try to do your best to make sure that happens.
  • How the first words out of your mouth when I got sick were “we will get through this… we always do”
  • How when I had my surgery you were one of the last things I saw before going in and one of the first things I saw when I woke up.
  • That you are very stubborn when it comes to my health and the rate at which my fingernail disappear.
  • The way you adore our girls and put them before yourself on so many occasions.
  • The fact you can tell how I am doing just by looking into my eyes.
  • The way you laugh when Caity comes up with another one of her ‘donut’ moments.
  • That you are one of the few people in this world that I can come to with a problem and know you will be there if I need you.
  • That eons ago you had enough balls to ask me out for coffee.
  • Your quasi-evil snicker as you try to eat your daughters’ toes, bum, belly or anything that looks biteable.
  • The way you sigh or whimper to try to get your way.
  • How you are still just as beautiful to me as the day that we met.
  • That just over 5 years ago you met me at the end of an aisle with all our loved ones there and composed yourself long enough to say ‘forever-ever’.  I was smiling in almost every picture taken that day… and that is saying something.
  • How a few days after that you didn’t kill me for losing my ring to the ocean.
  • How after the 4,310 days (give or take) that we have been together you can still take my breath away and melt my heart with a mere glance.

 

This is just a tiny list of the things I am thankful for every day that we have been together.  You are my everything.  You are my Bum.  You give me purpose and make me a better person and father.  Never forget that.”

 

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